Welcome!

As my first post I figured I’d give y’all a little background information on me and why I decided to start blogging. I am from Ann Arbor, MI; born and raised. I love this state because of its natural beauty, but to be honest I only started loving it this year, because it’s the warmest it’s ever been, and truth be told, I would like to get out of here ASAP, I just need to experience some new things; I’m sure everyone has been there at least once in their life. I work downtown at a law firm and have been pursuing my Associates Degree in Administrative Technology. However, as of late I have made the choice to take a hiatus from school. I realized that what I do for work, and what I’m going to school for, are not my calling. I am a very passionate person and I need the things I do in my life to have meaning, right now, nothing but my relationships (family, friends, etc.) mean anything to me, so that is something I’m changing. I decided to take a break from school, because I’m just wasting time and money doing something I don’t love, and I know the rate of people who take a break and don’t go back, I am not that person, I have taken a break and gone back before. So hopefully with this break what I’m going to start doing is volunteering and traveling. I need a good push to do things; I’m a procrastinator and am majorly indecisive, so I could definitely use some encouragement and pushing from friends, family, readers, etc.

So why did I decide to start blogging? Well I’m an honest, open book and I will tell you the truth from here on out, so if you don’t like reading it, don’t, and don’t leave negative comments either, because this girl is all about patience and positivity in her life. I digress, so I actually started this blog back in April, I had a few posts that I later deleted and decided to start fresh. I started it because I needed someone to talk to about things; I have this awful habit of keeping things inside and burying them deep, it’s unhealthy and will drive you mad. Have you ever felt like you have so much to complain about sometimes you can feel others getting tired of you talking? I’ve even felt it with my own mother, then again it could all be in my head; a lot of my worries usually are. I get off track a lot so forgive me and thanks for reading this far! So, a few months and a few sad, sappy, negative posts later I decided maybe I needed more than just a blank page on the Internet to talk to, someone who would give me feedback and not get sick of me, maybe she does but she can’t say so because she is my therapist. Yep, I said it, I see a counselor, and I’m not one bit ashamed to admit it. My life has changed tremendously for the better since then, I have learned so much about myself and so many coping tools and ways to deal with things and think about them, seriously I’ve never been happier with a choice, and I’ve been in therapy before, about ten years ago. The other reason I started this was because I love to write, a lot. I used to as a teen but it was more poetry to cope with depression and well that’s another story. But I love to write!

So  basically what I’ll be doing in this blog is journaling about the things I’ve been learning about life, myself, etc. through therapy and other things; also the fun things I do will be added, I’m not just a bag of boring with mental issues haha just kidding.  Another thing I’d like to keep you posted on, and I’ll do a separate post on that later, is weight loss. It’s a very rough journey as I’m sure many of you know, and mine has lasted fifteen years so far, from the age of 10. It’s not easy and I need support, encouragement and to be held accountable for when I start to slack or make excuses and not accomplish my goals. That’s where you guys (hopefully) come in! Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this and I hope you check it out again. Always feel free to leave comments or email me with questions/comments you may have!