No Fast Food January

So the working out has been going decently, I still haven’t gotten in there as much as I would like. I’ve been discouraged by all the New Year’s resolutioners, which is bad because I should be encouraged by them and encouraging them. It’s crazy that despite the large ware house style gym I attend; there are not enough machines for everyone. Okay, well maybe there are but all I ever want is a treadmill, running has helped me tone up the most to date. Apparently everyone else knows my secret too.

I have a hard time lifting free weights because that’s like the “guys” section. I think I even have a hard time with the machines because they’re right in front of everyone on the cardio machines, everyone staring at you. I guess they probably do on the treadmill too but thankfully I can’t see behind me. So obviously what we can all gather from this is I have a confidence issue, I don’t like to be looked at, and it makes me all self-conscious.  I could really use some tips on how to power through and just do it, other than who gives a shit what other people think. Well, me, that’s why I’m saying this, I can’t just change my thought process at the drop of a hat, believe me I would if I could.

There is definitely something to that not caring what people think theory though. It has gotten me through a few other things in life, like learning to be my truest self, so why can’t it get me through this? Why am I so shy at the gym to look stupid yet I don’t care in most other daily situations? There’s not too many ways around this fear other than A. working out at home, which I only own 10lb free weights and a yoga mat, although I do know you can do body weight exercises at home, and B. Just getting the eff over it, I mean really, I’m supposed to be a grown adult and I can’t lift weights in fear of looking dumb? Maybe a gym buddy would help, but I think most people are just as clueless as me and I don’t want to be the leader of that pack. I kinda miss my gym buddy who was a guy who knew everything, that didn’t last long though, our work shifts were just different and he lived a little far away for us to commute to each other. Any who.

So, why not workout at home with the body weight exercises. Man I have an excuse for everything I swear, maybe that’s my problem. Well there’s just not room, my room is too small, I have roommates always using the common rooms and the basement is the dog fortress and grosses me out too much. There is a tiny room with an elliptical and no dog piss scent; maybe that will do. That’s it, by golly; just by writing today I have figured out how to solve that problem. I didn’t think I had space, but really I was just looking for an excuse not to work out. Not tonight.

The parents are coming over for dinner tonight so I will probably skip the gym itself but try and get a workout in at home, in the tiny basement room. Maybe I’ll even try a short run outside because it’s so nice. Idk though, my knee started acting up last night while running and I’ve never felt that way before, it even hurt when I  was walking. So I read if something hurts, rest it two days and if it still hurts rest more, if a few weeks in it still hurts it’s time to see a doctor. So for me, I think it doesn’t hurt while walking much at all today, let’s try a run tonight, maybe not my best idea but when I get in an exercise groove I try not to leave it.

So I’m proud to say it’s the second to last day of January and I succeeded in only effing up “No Fast Food January” once! Yay me! And Damn Taco Bell/Girls Night! I’m also proud to say that even though I’m still stuck between 160-165 lbs. I haven’t gone back up to 165 at all so I’m hoping I’m slowly but surely losing some weight! Next month will be a hard one to choose what to give up, my dad usually gives up alcohol for lent no problem but I’m a social butterfly who likes to have a good time, so that’s not realistic at all. Neither is giving up something I don’t have very often at all, like soda (maybe I shouldn’t have chosen fast food because I don’t eat much of that either) That’s my problem, I eat everything in moderation so I don’t think I have a diet problem, but it’s obviously whatever I’m eating is just not compatible with my metabolism. I digress. So next month I should try sweets, all of them, no desserts, no chocolates, and no ice creams. So February = No Dessert February. Try it with me, or maybe you can try no fast food February, that would’ve sounded better. Damn.

Well thanks for tuning in my loves, hopefully in a few days I’ll have some more good news for you, cross your fingers I can finally drop below 160, it’s been a long time since I’ve seen anything below that so I will be pretty darn excited.

Have a wonderful day everyone! J